How I’ve always been until I realised it shouldn’t be a one way street.
Anonymous: I love you Holly!! Don't let anyone tell you how you should be feeling. You are gorgeous and amazing and can be upset about Doug for as long as you want to. Feelings don't just go away because things end. Stay strong sweetheart, you are awesome xx
I shall try. Thank you tonnes. xx
Anonymous: Are you stupid? Doug is not coming back, especially not for you. To put it in to a cliche term, he is just not that into you. Time to sort your shit out and move the fuck on, he probably has. Just thought I'd give it to you straight.
Yes, I seem to be. I do realise he is staying in England and I am not a reason to return. And yes, there are a lot of very pretty girls out there and he is truly wonderful, so I guess he may have moved on already - easy peasy. It does not however, mean I have to move on at the same rate, nor did I expect to.
Hey, thank you for the extra kick while I’m down.
Nothing beats this kind of intimacy, when it’s about 3am and it feels like you’re the only two people in the world. There are no words or intentions, you’re just happy lying next to each other knowing that you never want to do this with anyone else. Just to consider that you’re each, essentially, a bag of bones and organs and muscles, and yet you’re both so much more than that because you’ve found each other and suddenly everything makes so much sense.
This one time, in Amsterdam…
England. Why must you be so far away.
Yet again, distance has broken hearts.
